Saturday, 29 August 2015


Funny old day today. 
My hair is wet from washing, 
the light shade is wafting with the currents of warm air rising from the portable radiator.
Nathaniel is sleeping and sweating by my side, 
and I've spent the day in hiatus.


Folded inside myself
Is a paper packet.

How incongruous that a priceless collection of diamonds
Is folded like 4 oz. of sugar in a sheet of white paper.

Where are the velvet cushions? 
The tasselled and monocled butler;
The ladies maid and personal assistant,
The relatives ready to dirty their hands if it will bring the paper packet hey presto into their pocket. 

Once Dad, unpractised with the magician’s suit,
Instead of a silk scarf,
Brought out from the coat tails a desiccated, 
wrinkled old lemon.

Folded inside myself
a paper fold of diamonds.

There is only one beautiful one. 
The rest are pretties.
But this one – yes it is special.

My kin
Empathic with the water and metal in my body.

We construct a magnetic field around ourselves 
with cotton threads.
Our world is one of geometrises, 
arabesques and mandalas.

Crystal constructions in prismatic colours and forms.
We consult the image of magnetism
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with the hearts and minds of faith. 

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Monday, 24 August 2015

The Veil and the Wheel

My strength
My resolve is beyond all bounds.
All Celtic curiosity
Up in my chest
And almost absolutely.
How did I arise?
Where is the horizon I wished so ardently for?
Again it telescopes in and in
And lands up
On my doorstep
The compass is redirected
The true pole
Magnetic North
Revolves not around a distant ice-cap
But burning white hot
Around this man
This son of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob
This mirage, this distorting heat haze
Scintillating around this soul
Making him imperceptible, opaquely glimpsed.
As though through fog.
Do we ever truly see each other?
First passion is another myopia, another veil.
Wrought on a loom of steel weaving a cloth of milk thistle
Not easily torn in the first heat of knowing.
The second is a veil of my own making
A mythological veil
Of Golden Fleece qualities
Glistening, entrapping in its bewitching curls and spirals
A self-made maze of dazzling blinding gold.
I want to be lost
I seek blindness
Let me loose myself in this consuming Other.
The gold tarnishes to alloy paint and I see it for the bitter gall of the Other side
The Shadow Side of the myth I created
The Golden Fleece I had robed my love in
Is a painted prop in a school production
And I forget my lines
In the horror I have led myself into
My mummery
My delusion
My hand stitched narrative
Ripped and rent
In two
Before my eyes.
O happy sin of Adam, O necessary action of eve
How many times in this act will I repeat my lines?
Re-enact the plot?
Ah what?
Don’t I know myself by now?
This is not child’s play
This is deep water.
This is a circle of fire.
This is everything I know cut through.
Painless until the deep purple ebbs
To the surface and stains the furniture
Inward drop.
The deep wheel turns
In the cut
Of the pit
Of Black Water
And I know
I feel
I sense
The depth
The black, black water and the turning of the wheel.
How it feels to
Drop like a stone
And be dragged
Under, deep, deep
Suffocating, pressure, so dark and cold.
To the apex, far under the water
But I never see it.
I’m gone