In The Computer Screen
In the computer
screen today
I watched my contours
The computer is
taking a long time completing a task
It draws in my eyes
Dawning in my eyes is
me reflected in the black screen
In the black
I don’t see it at first
because I’m thinking about my next computer action
But then I see me -
it’s a black me
with harshly
contrasted blacks and whites
The window on one
side throwing a strong white light
and the darkening
room on the other side and in the screen
Black.
And I’m there in the
screen and there in the room
and somewhere in
between neither in the room or in the screen
but like infinity
between the two places
travelling having
left a long time ago and knowing I have a long way yet to go.
Committed to the journey
fatalistically
committed
I don’t have a choice
this is a reality, an immoveable, irrefutable, undeniable truth.
And my journey is one
every one of us has to go through.
The Father has
abandoned me.
He has left me.
Now I have to carry
on
Without his presence
and guidance
Without his comment
and judgement
Without his say so.
I am now an adult,
free of childhood, free of the person I was.
I am reborn.
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